I am crazy

I’m crazy for praise
I’m mad of possessions
I’m a wealth maniac
I’m always hungry for recognition

And I’m numb
If you don’t get respect
I slept a tenth of the time
I do any fasting
Since my childhood

I hugged three thousand people every night
I plant love across the country
My hands are muddy
I let my nose sniff
Dirt and garbage from the world

I poison the poison
Thousands of people stuck swords
To my chest, and I immerse myself
My life is unclean in the world

Because not a day is not even one night
I once left the occupants

But my heart is empty of life
What I’m looking for is praise, possessions
Wealth and respect
From you, O my beloved
Only from you

If anyone else praises me
Kissing my hand and hugging my body
Surely that is because they thought
This is me

What is Enneagram?

peta-kepribadian-enneagramThe Enneagram is one of the psychological tests developed by Oscar Ichazo and Claudio Naranjo based on personality theory which was initiated by G.I. Gurdjieff. Enneagram tests were introduced in 1950 and are still being developed.

From one point of view, the Enneagram can be seen as a set of nine discrete personality types, with each representation on the Enneagram indicating one type. It is obvious to find a little of yourself in all nine of the categories, although one of them should attain out as being resembling yourself.

Everyone begins from childhood with one of the nine types dominating their personality, with inborn temperament and other prenatal factors being the primary determinants of our representation. This is one field where almost all of the significant Enneagram authors agree—we are born with a dominant type. Subsequently, this inborn orientation largely determines how we learn to adapt to our early childhood environment. In any event, by the time children are four or five years old, their consciousness has progressed adequately to have a separate sense of self. Although their character is still very changeable, at this age children begin to ascertain themselves and find means of fitting into the world on their own.

Each descriptor can be expanded into four-word sets of traits. Have in mind that these are merely highlights and do not represent the full spectrum of each type.

  • Type 1 is principled, purposeful, self-controlled, and perfectionistic.
  • Type 2 is generous, demonstrative, people-pleasing, and possessive.
  • Type 3 is adaptable, excelling, driven, and image-conscious.
  • Type 4 is expressive, dramatic, self-absorbed, and temperamental.
  • Type 5 is perceptive, innovative, secretive, and isolated.
  • Type 6 is engaging, responsible, anxious, and suspicious.
  • Type 7 is spontaneous, versatile, acquisitive, and scattered.
  • Type 8 is self-confident, decisive, willful, and confrontational.
  • Type 9 is receptive, reassuring, complacent, and resigned.


Source: How The System Works — The Enneagram Institute. (n.d.). Retrieved from https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/how-the-enneagram-system-works/

Hate cannot drive out hate

t-when-you-hate-you-feel-miserableI believe that the one who hates me most is the one who hates him/herself most. I am of the opinion that hates is one of the most negative, destructive and corruptive things in the world if not adequately managed. It will negate our feelings, it will suck our passion in life to the very bottom, and it will end up with full of regrets.

The reason for this is that will absorb a lot of life energy; it will replace all of our positivities with one big negative idea about something/someone. For instance, if by chance we hate someone so bad all of our time will be wasted only by finding all of his/her downsides. We wouldn’t be able to see the other aspects about him/her other than the wrong things. Then we’ll start complaining, cursing, scoffing without realizing that most of our time, thoughts and energies are already waste just to become a negative being.

There is also the fact that hates will not bring you anywhere than being hateful itself. As Mr. King said “Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” Hating someone/something will only make your life miserable. So basically there is no point in keeping hating someone/something. The more we hate someone, the more it will create the negative version for ourselves.

Meanwhile by start to open your minds and hearts about forgiveness, the love will grow. The sooner you forgive, the sooner you will notice the changing inside you into more positive. Once you make peace with yourself, then you will see that life give you much more than you deserve. If you are able to reach this point, you will be grateful that you have love within you.

As mentioned, there is no reason to keep hates in our hearts. Just let it go, and you’ll start to understand that only love that can hold you overcoming any situations to come.